I’ve now been aware of a persistent low mood for around 2 months now. Here is a poem to reflect on the persistent feeling of not wanting to exist. It constantly washes over me during the day. This is not a feeling I want to act on, I know it doesn’t make any sense, overall… Continue reading Can I just not exist right now? k thx
Category: mental health
Confronting your triggers
Trigger warning: thoughts of suicide are mentioned in this blog post. I had a depressive episode yesterday. It lasted for about an hour, I was brought to tears and stuck in a, “I’m a failure” mental loop. I couldn’t put away my groceries or do anything else. Now this isn’t the worse episode I’ve had,… Continue reading Confronting your triggers
The winter blues strike again
I’ve been feeling a little low lately, event after a board game cruise holiday to New Caledonia didn’t fix my low energy (by the way the holiday was lots of fun, here are all the boardgames we took): So I went to my GP to get a blood test. Turns out I’m vitamin D deficient… Continue reading The winter blues strike again
How I ended up in my current job
Let me tell you a story of how I got my role at one of Australia’s big four banks. Back when I was last job hunting, I had a few different leads come about from networking at meetup events and this bank wasn’t my first choice. I had another Job Offer My trip up to… Continue reading How I ended up in my current job
Self Care and Spoon theory
I was having a chat to colleague recently about mental health. I actively blog about my struggles with depression and we got talking about spoon theory and self care. I thought I would share some of my practices that help me keep on top of this part of my health. Spoon Theory Spoon theory is… Continue reading Self Care and Spoon theory
Awesome stuff you’ve done this year and things you are working towards
Letter to self, For when you are feeling low, use this list to remind yourself of how much awesome stuff you’ve done. #HumbleBrag Events I’ve helped organise/presented at Sydney Testers Dice game 15/01 Social catch up 17/01 Communication Workshop 28/01 Quality coaching: discussion panel 12/02 Becoming more technical workshop 24/02 Becoming more technical workshop 28/02 Automation… Continue reading Awesome stuff you’ve done this year and things you are working towards
2018 – a year in review
2018 has come and gone. You know what, overall it’s been a pretty shit year for me but the goal of this blog post is to take a moment to practice gratefulness and to reflect. The crappy bits I started 2018 not being able to walk because I broke my ankle in December 2017 and… Continue reading 2018 – a year in review
Co-Housing
I’m binge watching youtube video’s, as I do when I’m doing nothing on the weekend and I stumble on this TED talk on co-housing: This got me thinking of all of the different types of houses I’ve lived in over the years and I’d thought I share my stories and experiences with them. My personal… Continue reading Co-Housing
How an offhand comment can trigger a depressive episode
I had a low day on Friday. I’ve had a persistent headache and fatigue for a few months now and a head cold on Friday brought out the worse of it. I’ve lived with depression for eight years now so I know when to have a day off to take it easy. Friday started with… Continue reading How an offhand comment can trigger a depressive episode
Goal setting for 2019
I’m starting my goal setting early. I wrote this blog for goal setting for 2018. On reflection; I haven’t slipped back into obesity at least, which I was super concerned about as I spent the first six months of 2018 recovering from a broken ankle. Here’s my thinking behind my goal setting for 2019 and… Continue reading Goal setting for 2019