I’ve now been aware of a persistent low mood for around 2 months now. Here is a poem to reflect on the persistent feeling of not wanting to exist. It constantly washes over me during the day. This is not a feeling I want to act on, I know it doesn’t make any sense, overall… Continue reading Can I just not exist right now? k thx
Month: October 2019
Confronting your triggers
Trigger warning: thoughts of suicide are mentioned in this blog post. I had a depressive episode yesterday. It lasted for about an hour, I was brought to tears and stuck in a, “I’m a failure” mental loop. I couldn’t put away my groceries or do anything else. Now this isn’t the worse episode I’ve had,… Continue reading Confronting your triggers
The winter blues strike again
I’ve been feeling a little low lately, event after a board game cruise holiday to New Caledonia didn’t fix my low energy (by the way the holiday was lots of fun, here are all the boardgames we took): So I went to my GP to get a blood test. Turns out I’m vitamin D deficient… Continue reading The winter blues strike again