I first developed chronic depression during uni back in 2012. I also started working in tech as a part time software tester back in 2011. I’ve always felt like my depression has impacted my work and this blog post is a reflection on that. 2011 – That first testing gig I had been working in… Continue reading How depression has impacted my worklife
Category: depression
How I recharge
Today I ran out of spoons and I didn’t realize until I started my walk to work and I started tearing up over listening to this podcast about people going for walks. Now there were some touching stories but I even got a bit teary feeling grateful over my morning coffee. ðŸ˜. So yeah, ok… Continue reading How I recharge
Mental Health check-in
Q. Hey Sam, how’s your mental health going? A. To be honest, it’s been pretty shit. This whole pandemic thing hasn’t been great for my mental wellbeing. Q. Yeah it’s all been pretty stressful, ay. What’s been bothering you? Would you like to talk about anything specifically? A. My sleep has been all kinds of… Continue reading Mental Health check-in
Schema Therapy
I had a chat to a psychologist yesterday and they recommend I try schema therapy. Schema therapy can be useful for people with split personalities or who have gone through cognitive behavioral therapy before but still find they get “stuck” in unhealthy mindsets. The premise behind the schema is that you have a belief or… Continue reading Schema Therapy
Can I just not exist right now? k thx
I’ve now been aware of a persistent low mood for around 2 months now. Here is a poem to reflect on the persistent feeling of not wanting to exist. It constantly washes over me during the day. This is not a feeling I want to act on, I know it doesn’t make any sense, overall… Continue reading Can I just not exist right now? k thx
Confronting your triggers
Trigger warning: thoughts of suicide are mentioned in this blog post. I had a depressive episode yesterday. It lasted for about an hour, I was brought to tears and stuck in a, “I’m a failure” mental loop. I couldn’t put away my groceries or do anything else. Now this isn’t the worse episode I’ve had,… Continue reading Confronting your triggers
The winter blues strike again
I’ve been feeling a little low lately, event after a board game cruise holiday to New Caledonia didn’t fix my low energy (by the way the holiday was lots of fun, here are all the boardgames we took): So I went to my GP to get a blood test. Turns out I’m vitamin D deficient… Continue reading The winter blues strike again
2018 – a year in review
2018 has come and gone. You know what, overall it’s been a pretty shit year for me but the goal of this blog post is to take a moment to practice gratefulness and to reflect. The crappy bits I started 2018 not being able to walk because I broke my ankle in December 2017 and… Continue reading 2018 – a year in review
Co-Housing
I’m binge watching youtube video’s, as I do when I’m doing nothing on the weekend and I stumble on this TED talk on co-housing: This got me thinking of all of the different types of houses I’ve lived in over the years and I’d thought I share my stories and experiences with them. My personal… Continue reading Co-Housing
How an offhand comment can trigger a depressive episode
I had a low day on Friday. I’ve had a persistent headache and fatigue for a few months now and a head cold on Friday brought out the worse of it. I’ve lived with depression for eight years now so I know when to have a day off to take it easy. Friday started with… Continue reading How an offhand comment can trigger a depressive episode