Schema Therapy; Part V

This week I’ve started imagery rescripting with my psychologist. The idea being to revisit a painful memory but to rescript it in such a way that I’m able to provide the support that I needed in that situation.

Family Reflections

Here are some stories about my family that I’m going over with my psychologist:

Revisiting the money conversation

In today’s session I revisit the conversation where my dad asks to borrow money. I close my eyes and we walk through the scenario. We dig up the emotions I felt, the sense of failure for not being able to help. And then my psychologist steps in and we tell my dad how much of a dick he’s being and how he’s failed as a parent.

Hugging your inner child

Then I’m asked to imagine my inner child and give them a big hug. I struggled to imagine my inner child as me though because I was bullied for being fat as a kid. I have shame associated with that image. I ended up imagining Christopher Robin.

I had bullies at school and in the family, no wonder why I developed some problems.

My next steps is to work on my inner self child image. If I can learn to love and accept an image of me that I have shame in, I will be able to heal more from the experience.

3 comments

  1. Wow Sam and love your rawness! I’ve done a few painful variants of this and love how you framed it in that you do go through the pain, but it’s in a safe controlled space. Power to you!!!!!

    1. Thanks for your support Ed.

      It also felt amazing to have someone else tell me how successful I am in a moment of feeling like a failure.

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