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Letters to darkness

I sit here and I reflect,

How did I let you back in?

 

you are not welcome here

all you bring is misery & hate

you make me hate myself

you make me feel like a failure

 

I did not invite you

yet you came anyway

you are always testing me

waiting to come back in

 

I name you darkness

you sap the joy out of life

I wish I could rid you

but I always fail

5 replies on “Letters to darkness”

Yes, I had another mental breakdown today, this time there were no triggers, no hormones to blame. I don’t know how I got into this state, I’m making positive changes; I’m getting on top of finances and exercising more. Yet the darkness still came to devour all joy.

Demons Of Darkness

© Olivia B
Published on September 16, 2015

She stood on the bridge
In silence and fear
For the demons of darkness
Had driven her here

They cut her heart
Right out of her chest
Making her believe
That the demons knew best

They were always there
Sometimes just out of sight
Waiting in the background
Till the time was right

These demons were destructive
Knocking down the life she knew
Hating everything about her
She hated herself too

These demons can’t be seen
But they’re far from fairy tales
They live inside your mind
Their evilness prevails

So on the bridge she stood
About to end the fight
Then she stopped and thought
I’ll fight them one more night

Source: http://www.familyfriendpoems.com/poem/demons-of-darkness

[…] I’ve now been aware of a persistent low mood for around 2 months now. Here is a poem to reflect on the persistent feeling of not wanting to exist. It constantly washes over me during the day. This is not a feeling I want to act on, I know it doesn’t make any sense, overall my life is pretty awesome (except for these thoughts and a few other things) but if you feel like acting on these types of thoughts please reach out to lifeline on 13 11 14 or anyone other related service. The last time I wrote a poem about depression was in 2016. […]

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